It's 2026!

 Woohoo!!

2026 and I am still here.

Manifesting that I am going to post more here after this.

Btw, cringe gila la weyh bila baca balik my old posts. My naive side! 

and I can't even believe how things happened and changed for me, to be what it's like today.

So, let's go for new adventure!

2025

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It's a wrap for 2015! Even though it's only April.. =)

Happy 26th birthday dear AF.. Thanks sebab bagi saya one of the sweetest moment ever on your big day.. Thank you dear Allah sebab da buka hati dia untuk saya.. Thank you juga sebab da buka hati saya sedikit sebanyak untuk jadi yang lebih baik dari semalam.. Alhamdulillah..

Things change, focus change..

Bagai seorang pemanah, tanpa arah & tujuan maka jatuhlah anak panah tanpa terkena sasaran.. For all these years I have been targetting to the same target & this time I will change my target.. To a better target spot! InsyaAllah, ahamdulillah for everything..

Xde satu pun yg dijadikan dengan sia2 olehNya..

#5

Comeback

I almost forgot that I have a blog, oh my..
Life has upraded itself into a very fast lane for me..

I told them to give myself some space for this earlier 3 months but they couldn't stand..
2 months passsed by and I'm going to come back..
But things change, to be better I guess..

Alhamdulliah for all the changes in my life, that I have manage to eliminate unimportant things in my life! =)

I'm loud..

I was born big..
Big voice I mean.. hihi..

Pasal tuh la org salu misunderstand me..
My 'ye ke?' or 'mana?' tuh org akan anggap saya macam nak argue.. padahal saya betul2 nak tahu apakah..
Then kalau saya bergossip dengan my gff, for sure org depan belakang tepi akan tahu kitorg ckp psl pe.. It could be irritating for them sometime..
Lagi la kalau tgh bergaduh, org akan ckp I raise my voice to fight..walhalnya saya hanya la menyatakan.. and sometime ada yg label saya as RUDE..

But deep inside, xde satu pun yg betul..
Saya memang biasa berbual dengan suara yg kuat, maybe sbb suara saya besar sikit kan.. So my 50% volume is equal to others 80% volume..
Kalau sy present dlm class pun, I don't think that I need a speaker or whatsoever, I can keep them awake all the time with just using my original voice.. Tuh kalau sy jerit memang dari hujung padang bola ke hujung akan boleh dengar saya..

and I keep it +ve always.. that I talk out loud so that people will get my information clear, so that in future later no one will misunderstand nor misuse any of my words.. Tapi that's it, people do misunderstand me..

huh...

Rules For Life

I give it my best...

Berakhir da pun liga FELDA musim 2012/2013..
Alhamdulillah yg x terhingga..
Alhamdulillah sebab semutmerah berjaya juga melangkah ke semi walaupn hampir putus harapan..
Alhamdulillah sebab semutmerah semua bagi yg terbaik..
Alhamdulillah sebab semutmerah berjaya main as a team.. =)
Alhamdulillah..

Ralat ke saya x dapat ke final?
Tak pun..
Saya tahu ramai org bercakap2 dekat luar sana..
Macam biasalah, yang lantang bersuara tuh la yang paling cetek akalnya.. =)

Adat pertandingan ada menang, ada kalah..
Ada hari kita perform, ada hari kita macam bangang je dalam court tuh..
Adakala peluang melintang2, even open goal pun kita x score..
=)

Even kalah semi, tapi saya bangga dgn semutmerah semua..
After all, it turns us to be a better person kan?
That's worth more than the throphy..
and we can always bounce back for sure..

Thank you semua semutmerah!

I sincerely wish each of you all the best no matter what you do or where you'll be in future.. =)

Buah Tangan January

Saya mmg minat music..

Not in a way that anyone could easily understand I think.. =)

Saya suka dengar lagu..

Lagu yg masuk terus dlm jiwa.. Haissshh..

Tuh pergi mana2 saya nak juga bawa mp3 saya..

Sampaikan saya pernah terbiasa dengar lagu sebelum tido..

And saya nak lebih dari mendengar, saya nak get involved with it..

When I understand more, I will be better..

That's when I decided to play an instrument, so that I can play whatever song I want, not only hearing it.. =)

What I love most is the piano.. Selalu berangan nak main piano..

Tapi saya xde bakat, xde masa, xde fulus yg byk..So sy hanya mampu berangan.. hihi..

Saya pernah belajar main gitar masa sekolah dulu..

Sekerat jalan gak la.. Dengan alasan ys sama, xde bakat, xde masa..

So it became hard for me..

Dah kat UiTM saya pernah cuba nak continue balik..

I decided to go with guitar since it's quite cheaper & easy to learn..

By easy I mean I can always learn on my own, no need to go classes..

Saya bukan nak jadi artis tapi utk kepuasan diri..

Susah nak pinjam gitar org lain, so saya ingat nak beli..

Tapi harga boleh tahan lak kan..so delay lagi..

Sampai la this year, saya tekad utk agkt 1 gak..

Alhamdulillah now da ada gitar sendiri, da ada hobi baru.. =) 

Hobi lama yg da berhabuk rasanya..

I'm posting this entry bcoz sure ada ramai yg x percaya sy minat music neh..

Yes, I do.. org je x tahu sbb sy selalu dgn futsal aje kot.. Sports memanjang.. Hihi..

More, tahun neh saya berusaha nak capai mimpi2 saya yg x dapat saya nak gapai sebelum neh..

Mimpi yg telus.. Mimpi yg ikhlas, yg mana I dream of it without any fear..

I'm getting it one by one..

=)

Terima kasih Allah untuk semangat baru neh, one step at a time..

Hope..

Dua hari lepas ada dua orang budak kecil datang kedai..

Saja ringankan mulut tanya2, kata nak menjual kan..

Tapi dorg segan2 je nak ckp..

Semalam dorg datang lagi, kali neh da kurang segan..

Tanya pasal baju semua..

Tapi yg paling kecik tuh kata baju semua besar sgt, dia x muat..

Mmg pun, kita cuma jual all adult size..

So request la dekat dia bawa baju sendiri..

Tadi pg dorg dtg lagi, masih berdua..

Tengok2 je..masa nak balik yg tinggi sikit tuh ckp la nnt ayah dia dpt gaji dia dtg buat..

2-3 jam lepas tuh dorg dtg lg..

Kali neh da x segan pun, siap tanya mcm2..

Da bgtaw kos plg murah dlm 10 ringgit..

Then masa nak balik tuh dengar la yg tinggi tuh ckp mcm neh

'Nanti kalau abg ada 10 ringgit kita pergi buat ok..'

Oooo, adk beradik rupanya..

Tersenyum sendiri sy..

And I learned something there & remember something too..

=)

We can always learn even from small kids..

Eleven Hints for Life

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.

But what is more painful is to love someone and never

find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who

means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was

never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a

porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away

feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose

it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been

missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an

hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it

takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,

even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you

smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day

seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,

be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and

one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it

hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck

a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may

heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best

of everything they just make the most of everything that comes

along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with

a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone

around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,

you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Save you..

Take a breath

I pull myself together

Just another step till I reach the door

You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you

I wish that I could tell you something

To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I won't give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice

Its drowning in a whisper

It's Just skins and bones

There's nothing left to take

No matter what I do I can't make you feel better

If only I could find the answer

To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I wont give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down

I'll pick you up off the ground

If you lose faith in you

I'll give you strength to pull through

Tell me you won’t give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall

Oh you know I'll be there for you

(Ahahaha)

If only I could find the answer

To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I wont give up till it’s over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

(Oh)

I wish I could save you

I want you to know

(Ohohh)

I wish I could save you (oh)

SEA GAMES Myanmar 2013

Siapa sangka?

Saya pun x sangka..

Akhirnya sejarah tercipta gak.. =)

Our women futsal national team won a medal in the SEA GAMES for the first time..

Selama neh pergi mana2 friendly pun asyik kalah, kali neh balik bukan dengan tangan kosong..

Won over Myanmar 4-2, draw with Indonesia 1-1, lost to Thailand 1-3 & draw against Vietnam 3-3..

We almost made it to final.. Tapi getting a bronze is also a big thing already for us.. =)

Dekat sana banyak yg saya belajar..

First, nothing is impossible..

Saya pernah berangan nak kalahkan team luar negara..

But looking to our standards & attitude, I almost give up along the way..

But this is it kan.. Betul la tuh, doa-usaha-tawakal..

Sepanjang saya dekat situ, every seconds inside of the court saya berdoa & berserah..

Alhamdulillah all went well..

Second, there's always upside down in our performances..

Bukan in each game, sometimes in each half taw..

Sebenarnya da lama pun sedar benda neh, tapi baru skrg saya betul2 percaya..

Bila da percaya & faham, it's easy for me to accept it..

Xde lagi rasa takut utk mencuba, cuba sebaik mungkin.. ~wink

Last, power can change people..

Bile seseorang tuh berkuasa, dia akan jadi tamak..maybe selfish gak..

and the way they treat people also different, those yg xde kepentingan utk dorg la..

Bitter but that's a fact.. =)

and I'm accepting it with an open heart..

Anyway, alhamdulillah sangat sebab semuanya berjalan lancar dekat sana..

Special shoutout to my family yg selalu support saya..

Siap sanggup tengok saya dekat dalam arena tuh lagi.. hihi..

Tak lupa juga my beloved one, my Sm;)e yang selalu ada untuk saya, yang buat hati saya selalu tenang..

Dia siap amik pic sy & post kat fb lg.. you're my inspiration!

To my friends yg x pernah putus asa & percaya kemampuan saya, thank you.. 

Till then, I got bronze in sea games.. Hope lepas neh futsal akan bertambah maju di Malaysia..

Hope gak saya akan buat lebih baik in future.. =)

#num5rules

#futsal

Check up done!

Hari tuh pergi check up dekat ISN, jantung ada problem..
Then rujuk pakar dekat hospital serdang..
Dia check jantung and buat stress treadmill test..
Macam2 la yg org tuh bgtaw, sy pun x faham apa2..

Injap bocor sikit..

Dinding jantung belah kiri kembang sikit..

Pulse lambat naik and cepat turun balik lak..

Kene refer ENT laa..

I really have no idea of what's happening.. Is it good? or bad?
Tapi doctor cakap there is nothing to worry..
Nanti jumpa doctor kat ISN balik lak..
Whatever it is, I just hope that all will be fine.. =)

and there is something, a very different feeling masa buat check up tadi..
Buat sonogram dekat jantung.. I grab the opportunity, tengok jantung saya berdegup kat monitor..
Can't really explain the feeling.. saya nampak jantung saya berdenyut laju macam mana..
I'm touched.. =)

Nothing more but thank you Allah for the life you have given to me.. I will sure take a very good care of myself..

Alhamdulillah alhamduillah, alhamdulillah..

2nd round of LFK 2013 #semutmerah journal

We're entering the 2nd round for now..
Let the game begin!

We're getting it right, the momentum and the environment..
We started a bit slow but we're climbing it one by one..
I always recall what my former coach have told me,

League system is different than the carnival!

I got him now..
and we're adapting fast..
Could not wait to perform for 2nd round!
We didn't say that we're gonna win it all..
We're gonna give our best & they will sure not have a good time this round..
Mark my words! =)

So good luck all #semutmerah!
It's in us, we just have to let it out!
ROAR!!!

Extra Training..

I am so glad that I have that knowledge of sport science..
and since I'm so actively involve in sports, it helps me so much..

I find it very easy to overcome all my weaknesses including my performances peak timing.. hihi..

and here's a thought that I think most people do misunderstood..
It is not about the quantity but the quality!
You don't have to workout every day and night, pushing yourself off the cliff!
Pushing yourself over the limit is good.. but it is about the correlation of time, intensity, activity & also ur resting period..

Watch Karate Kid and then you'll understand it..

Sometimes, too many is not too good..  =)

Gonna share some info in future regarding my training..
Daaaa...

17 most important things to remember in life

1.       Never give up on anybody. Miracles happen everyday.

2.       Be brave! Even if you’re not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference.

3.       Think big thoughts, relish small pleasures.

4.       Learn to listen, opportunity sometimes knocks very softly.

5.       Never deprive someone hopes, it might be all they have.

6.       Strive for excellence not perfection.

7.       Don’t waste time grieving over past mistakes. Learn from them & move on.

8.       When someone hugs you, let them be the first to let go.
9.       Never cut what can be untied.

10.   Don’t expect life to be fair.
11.   Remember: Success comes to the one that acts first.

12.   Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them.

13.   Remember that nobody makes it alone. Have a grateful heart & be quick to acknowledge those who help you.

14.   Never underestimate the power of a kind word or deed.

15.   Laugh a lot. A good sense of humour cures almost all of life’s ills.

16.   Don’t miss the magic of the moment by focusing on whats to come.

17.   Watch for big problems. They disguise big oppurtunities.

Semut Merah #5

I have some other thing in mind, but I dun think that I should post it right now.. =)
For this time biarlah saya post pasal my Semut Merah je dulu..

Now we all dah tangga ke4 pun, alhamdulillah..
Slow and steady, we will reach there.. to the place where we belong to..

Wearing those jersey, I only know one thing..
That I will give my very best in the court!
I will play all out for my team mates, for my coaches, for the one I love and lastly for me myself..

It's an honor to fight for those worthy people in my life..
May Allah blesses me.. =)

 A picture of thousand definition..

For the club names that we carry all this way, for each of us no matter we're in or out of the court, for our pride-commitment-relationship.. =)

For a better game, better life, better memory in future.. =)

As long as we don't give up..
Wish us luck....

Hello September!

Whoaahhh, time flies so fast..
Rasa macam baru minggu lepas puasa, baru semalam beraya..
Now da in the middle of league pun..
Kedai pun da officially open.. =)

Nowadays antibody dah x kuat, asyik sakit je.. =(
Few times of breaking down but I still manage to smile..
I do almost lose myself but I get back, everything is in control..

I will keep on smiling.. =)

Thank you Allah..

Di pertengahan Ramadhan...

Ada banyak request untuk beraya sekali neh..
Yelah, x dinafikan setelah hampir sedekad lebih di perantauan, saya berpeluang utk kenal ramai org..
Dorg baik hati sangat utk kesah pasal saya..
To my Family angkat semua, yang kat Kedah, kat Johor, kat Terengganu & Shah Alam.. Terima kasih sebab ada untuk saya, mengaku saya neh sebahagian dari ahli keluarga..

Tapi untuk kali neh saya minta maaf sebab saya xkan balik beraya mana2..
Kali neh saya nak beraya dengan my own family, walaupun dorg x sambut raya tapi I just wanna celebrate with them..It has been a long time.. =)

Banyak sangat pengalaman Raya saya yg x dpt & xkan saya lupakan..
Terima kasih sangat2 & andai ada salah silap saya minta maaf dari awal hingga akhir, dari hujung rambut hingga hujung kaki.. =)

Sekian, Selamat berbuka semua.......

Fasting Month!

Rasanya masih belum terlambat nak wish Selamat Berpuasa to all Muslims around the world kan?

I feel so much different this time, rasa lebih bermakna kot.. =)

Alhamdulillah kita jumpa lagi wahai Ramadhan..

Walaupun saya terpaksa training dalam bulan puasa, tapi itu semua x jadi masalah kan..

In fact, dia ajar pasal sabar so much.. Yelah, pagi pergi training, balik sambung pergi kerja, petang buka puasa then training balik.. It is so tiring.. Tapi Alhamdulillah all went well..

To take it positive enuf, harap tahap kesabaran saya akan semakin meningkat.. hihi.. Lagipun, training itu kan da mcm sumber rezeki saya juga.. da kira macam beribadah gak.. bukannya sia2, puas hati sangat bila mampu settlekan dua2 sekali.. =)

Dan satu lagi nikmat berpuasa ialah solat.. =) I have not much words to describe the feeling..but I do hope u guys feel the same too, betapa indahnya Ramadhan kan..

Last but not least, semoga kita semua bergembira di bulan yg mulia ini..

Salam sayang dari saya, chewahhhh!

NotaKaki: Me & my roommate in national camp!