Comeback

I almost forgot that I have a blog, oh my..
Life has upraded itself into a very fast lane for me..

I told them to give myself some space for this earlier 3 months but they couldn't stand..
2 months passsed by and I'm going to come back..
But things change, to be better I guess..

Alhamdulliah for all the changes in my life, that I have manage to eliminate unimportant things in my life! =)

I'm loud..

I was born big..
Big voice I mean.. hihi..

Pasal tuh la org salu misunderstand me..
My 'ye ke?' or 'mana?' tuh org akan anggap saya macam nak argue.. padahal saya betul2 nak tahu apakah..
Then kalau saya bergossip dengan my gff, for sure org depan belakang tepi akan tahu kitorg ckp psl pe.. It could be irritating for them sometime..
Lagi la kalau tgh bergaduh, org akan ckp I raise my voice to fight..walhalnya saya hanya la menyatakan.. and sometime ada yg label saya as RUDE..

But deep inside, xde satu pun yg betul..
Saya memang biasa berbual dengan suara yg kuat, maybe sbb suara saya besar sikit kan.. So my 50% volume is equal to others 80% volume..
Kalau sy present dlm class pun, I don't think that I need a speaker or whatsoever, I can keep them awake all the time with just using my original voice.. Tuh kalau sy jerit memang dari hujung padang bola ke hujung akan boleh dengar saya..

and I keep it +ve always.. that I talk out loud so that people will get my information clear, so that in future later no one will misunderstand nor misuse any of my words.. Tapi that's it, people do misunderstand me..

huh...

JULY 2014

Hello Julyyyy!!!

Lamanya x blogging..
Da pindah, x pindah rumah tp pindah bilik je..
yg lain xde apa pun yg berubah..
Saya masih di sini, saya yg dulu..
Masih kais2, masih cari keje tetap..

Anyhow, selamat berpuasa..
Gonna be active here soon..

I choose to stay, dengan izinMu ya Allah.. =)

Bila kita melebihkan cinta pada yg lain selain yg maha Esa, dekat situ da hilang la keberkatan dariNya..

Siapalah saya kan.. Saya hanya manusia biasa..
Xde apa yg nak dibanggakan pun..
Tapi siapalah kita sesama manusia nak judge memasing kan.. =)

Saya sayang awk.. Apa yg sy pernah janji, apa yg sy pernah ckp kat awk, sedikit pun sy x pernah tipu..
Saya buat apa je asalkan awak happy, walaupun happy itu akhirnya nnt bukan untuk saya..
Dan saya sesekali pun xkan let go, melainkan awk yg da xnak saya..
Memang nmpk mcm bodoh kan..
Tapi biarlah saya nmpk bodoh di mata semua org, saya memang bodoh tapi at least saya tahu mcm mana nk mencintai seseorang dengan ikhlas.. (after years, I do still hold on into these..Life's full of shit that anybody forgot how to love sincerely..)
Cinta itu kan x semestinya memiliki..
So selama mana masa yg saya ada, saya akan cuba bahagiakan awak..
Dan kalau satu hari nnt awak da xnk saya, sekurang2nya da xde apa yg sy sesalkan sbb saya dah bagi yg terbaik untuk awk..

 Saya cuma ada awk dan akan ade awk selagi ade hayat saya, insyaAllah..Selagi saya mampu jaga hubungan neh, saya akan jaga, yang lain saya serahkan pada Allah..

Dan saya redha atas semuanya, apa yg dah tertulis utk saya..
Semoga saya sentiasa dapat memperbaiki diri sendiri untuk Allah.. =)

SayasayangawakAF...

Happy 25th Birthday AF!

You're 25th this year!!

Alhamdulillah so much.. =)

Semoga awk dipanjangkan umur, dimurahkan rezeki & berbahagia selalu.. Ucapan yg klise kan? Hahahahah..So ini ucapan yg non klise nyer..

Saya doakan awk berjaya di dunia akhirat, jadi orang yg lebih baik dari semalam & semoga awk dapat apa yg awk cari dlm hidup ini..Saya sayang awk selalu..

Saya minta maaf sebab kek abis cair.. Hurmmm.. I wanted you to have the best cake but it turn out to be a disaster kan.. Anyway, I do have a great time & good pictures on ur big day tuh.. Hope awk pun rasa yg sama kan.. Hihi..

Last but not least, xde sehari pun yg saya x bersyukur atas kehadiran awk dlm hidup saya.. Thank you Allah that he was born that day & he's still here with me.. Alhamdulillah...

P/S: Iloveyou!

Rules For Life

Saya sakit... =(

I don't know how to say this..

Da pernah buat check up pun, sonogram, ECG, Stress Test..

All is okay..

Tapi sakit neh datang juga..

Bila saya kata saya sakit..

Sakit dia bukan macam sakit perut masuk angin yg letak minyak angin je then nnt da lega..

Saya sakit, sakit sangat..

Saya sakit smpi kdg2 susah nak breathing, sampai kadang2 x sedar air mata da kua..

Perit...

But, sometime it hurts more when you tell a person that you're in pain and they just thought it's nothing..

So I just keep it to myself..

First game saya okay lagi..

Second game, dia datang kejap2..

After third game tuh, I can feel the pain every time I breath..

And last game, I'm numb..

I hardly can't feel the air I breathe..

I can't do nothing.. Tapi percaya lah yg saya bagi yg terbaik dah..

I'm sorry that on the day, my best is only at 50%..

Now dah hari ke4 rest baru numbness neh rasa kurang..

Hurrrmmm, I don't know a single thing bout this painful thing..

Tapi saya takut to face it in future again..

Banyak saya fikir, sampaikan saya fikir utk quit futsal..

Yeah, maybe I have reached my limit kan..

Tapi...... I just hope I can know what, why & where this pain come from..

Alhamdulillah all went well so far for now.. =)

Owh, my Boo pula yang x sehat right now..

Sabar ye Boo, I will always pray for you..

Sesungguhnya sakit itu kan menghapuskan dosa2 kecil..

Terima kasih Allah & semoga semuanya akan okay balik.. =)

I give it my best...

Berakhir da pun liga FELDA musim 2012/2013..
Alhamdulillah yg x terhingga..
Alhamdulillah sebab semutmerah berjaya juga melangkah ke semi walaupn hampir putus harapan..
Alhamdulillah sebab semutmerah semua bagi yg terbaik..
Alhamdulillah sebab semutmerah berjaya main as a team.. =)
Alhamdulillah..

Ralat ke saya x dapat ke final?
Tak pun..
Saya tahu ramai org bercakap2 dekat luar sana..
Macam biasalah, yang lantang bersuara tuh la yang paling cetek akalnya.. =)

Adat pertandingan ada menang, ada kalah..
Ada hari kita perform, ada hari kita macam bangang je dalam court tuh..
Adakala peluang melintang2, even open goal pun kita x score..
=)

Even kalah semi, tapi saya bangga dgn semutmerah semua..
After all, it turns us to be a better person kan?
That's worth more than the throphy..
and we can always bounce back for sure..

Thank you semua semutmerah!

I sincerely wish each of you all the best no matter what you do or where you'll be in future.. =)

Buah Tangan January

Saya mmg minat music..

Not in a way that anyone could easily understand I think.. =)

Saya suka dengar lagu..

Lagu yg masuk terus dlm jiwa.. Haissshh..

Tuh pergi mana2 saya nak juga bawa mp3 saya..

Sampaikan saya pernah terbiasa dengar lagu sebelum tido..

And saya nak lebih dari mendengar, saya nak get involved with it..

When I understand more, I will be better..

That's when I decided to play an instrument, so that I can play whatever song I want, not only hearing it.. =)

What I love most is the piano.. Selalu berangan nak main piano..

Tapi saya xde bakat, xde masa, xde fulus yg byk..So sy hanya mampu berangan.. hihi..

Saya pernah belajar main gitar masa sekolah dulu..

Sekerat jalan gak la.. Dengan alasan ys sama, xde bakat, xde masa..

So it became hard for me..

Dah kat UiTM saya pernah cuba nak continue balik..

I decided to go with guitar since it's quite cheaper & easy to learn..

By easy I mean I can always learn on my own, no need to go classes..

Saya bukan nak jadi artis tapi utk kepuasan diri..

Susah nak pinjam gitar org lain, so saya ingat nak beli..

Tapi harga boleh tahan lak kan..so delay lagi..

Sampai la this year, saya tekad utk agkt 1 gak..

Alhamdulillah now da ada gitar sendiri, da ada hobi baru.. =) 

Hobi lama yg da berhabuk rasanya..

I'm posting this entry bcoz sure ada ramai yg x percaya sy minat music neh..

Yes, I do.. org je x tahu sbb sy selalu dgn futsal aje kot.. Sports memanjang.. Hihi..

More, tahun neh saya berusaha nak capai mimpi2 saya yg x dapat saya nak gapai sebelum neh..

Mimpi yg telus.. Mimpi yg ikhlas, yg mana I dream of it without any fear..

I'm getting it one by one..

=)

Terima kasih Allah untuk semangat baru neh, one step at a time..

Hope..

Dua hari lepas ada dua orang budak kecil datang kedai..

Saja ringankan mulut tanya2, kata nak menjual kan..

Tapi dorg segan2 je nak ckp..

Semalam dorg datang lagi, kali neh da kurang segan..

Tanya pasal baju semua..

Tapi yg paling kecik tuh kata baju semua besar sgt, dia x muat..

Mmg pun, kita cuma jual all adult size..

So request la dekat dia bawa baju sendiri..

Tadi pg dorg dtg lagi, masih berdua..

Tengok2 je..masa nak balik yg tinggi sikit tuh ckp la nnt ayah dia dpt gaji dia dtg buat..

2-3 jam lepas tuh dorg dtg lg..

Kali neh da x segan pun, siap tanya mcm2..

Da bgtaw kos plg murah dlm 10 ringgit..

Then masa nak balik tuh dengar la yg tinggi tuh ckp mcm neh

'Nanti kalau abg ada 10 ringgit kita pergi buat ok..'

Oooo, adk beradik rupanya..

Tersenyum sendiri sy..

And I learned something there & remember something too..

=)

We can always learn even from small kids..

Your precious time

Comot dapat hadiah.. wee!!

Saya lak dapat makan banyak2..

Nasi arab, beger bakar & new jersey..

Thank you #smile

It's not the things you spend on me but the time spend for me that is counted..

Iloveyou & will always do..

Thank you dear Allah..

Eleven Hints for Life

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.

But what is more painful is to love someone and never

find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who

means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was

never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a

porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away

feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose

it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been

missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an

hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it

takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,

even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you

smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day

seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,

be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and

one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it

hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck

a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may

heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best

of everything they just make the most of everything that comes

along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with

a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone

around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,

you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Save you..

Take a breath

I pull myself together

Just another step till I reach the door

You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you

I wish that I could tell you something

To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I won't give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice

Its drowning in a whisper

It's Just skins and bones

There's nothing left to take

No matter what I do I can't make you feel better

If only I could find the answer

To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I wont give up till it's over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down

I'll pick you up off the ground

If you lose faith in you

I'll give you strength to pull through

Tell me you won’t give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall

Oh you know I'll be there for you

(Ahahaha)

If only I could find the answer

To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I wont give up till it’s over

If it takes you forever I want you to know

(Oh)

I wish I could save you

I want you to know

(Ohohh)

I wish I could save you (oh)

SEA GAMES Myanmar 2013

Siapa sangka?

Saya pun x sangka..

Akhirnya sejarah tercipta gak.. =)

Our women futsal national team won a medal in the SEA GAMES for the first time..

Selama neh pergi mana2 friendly pun asyik kalah, kali neh balik bukan dengan tangan kosong..

Won over Myanmar 4-2, draw with Indonesia 1-1, lost to Thailand 1-3 & draw against Vietnam 3-3..

We almost made it to final.. Tapi getting a bronze is also a big thing already for us.. =)

Dekat sana banyak yg saya belajar..

First, nothing is impossible..

Saya pernah berangan nak kalahkan team luar negara..

But looking to our standards & attitude, I almost give up along the way..

But this is it kan.. Betul la tuh, doa-usaha-tawakal..

Sepanjang saya dekat situ, every seconds inside of the court saya berdoa & berserah..

Alhamdulillah all went well..

Second, there's always upside down in our performances..

Bukan in each game, sometimes in each half taw..

Sebenarnya da lama pun sedar benda neh, tapi baru skrg saya betul2 percaya..

Bila da percaya & faham, it's easy for me to accept it..

Xde lagi rasa takut utk mencuba, cuba sebaik mungkin.. ~wink

Last, power can change people..

Bile seseorang tuh berkuasa, dia akan jadi tamak..maybe selfish gak..

and the way they treat people also different, those yg xde kepentingan utk dorg la..

Bitter but that's a fact.. =)

and I'm accepting it with an open heart..

Anyway, alhamdulillah sangat sebab semuanya berjalan lancar dekat sana..

Special shoutout to my family yg selalu support saya..

Siap sanggup tengok saya dekat dalam arena tuh lagi.. hihi..

Tak lupa juga my beloved one, my Sm;)e yang selalu ada untuk saya, yang buat hati saya selalu tenang..

Dia siap amik pic sy & post kat fb lg.. you're my inspiration!

To my friends yg x pernah putus asa & percaya kemampuan saya, thank you.. 

Till then, I got bronze in sea games.. Hope lepas neh futsal akan bertambah maju di Malaysia..

Hope gak saya akan buat lebih baik in future.. =)

#num5rules

#futsal