maDah bErhELah..

Only 2 kinds of people are happy in this world. 1. Mad 2. Child. So be mad to achieve whatever you desire and be like a child to enjoy whatever you achieve.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

thE rOad tHat nOt takEn...



"I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing."



haha...n i dUn evEn nOe wHat's thE bEst fOr mE ritE nOw...
evEn iF i nOe iT, i'm afraid tO lEt iT oUt..
lettinG tHingS tO bE dEcidEd by others, i dUn livE a hapPy lifE witH iT..
n i dUn nOe wEn wilL i stOp..

i havE a sitUatioN ritE nOw...
i havE these pEopLE whOm owEz vEry sUppoRtivE n thEy trUstEd mE..
lEttinG mE tO handLe evErytHing..tiL sumtiMES i fELt sO strEss n rUn awaY frOm thEm...
bUt stilL i'm wiF thEm cOz tHey'rE sO kiNd..



on thE othEr sidE..my dEsirE..
tO gO furthER n aChievE anOthEr suCceSs..
tO bEat thE bEst in mE n bEcOminG thE bEst..
bUt i dUn havE cOuragE...




wHat shUd i dO?
jUz siTting baCk n fOllOw wHat's gOnNa happEn nExt??
i nEed tO dEcidE wHat iS thE bEst..
rELatiOnshIp, faiTh,SatisfaCtiOn oR frEedOm?

iT's sO hard fOr mE..
bUt i hOpe daT i'lL cOmE oUt wiF a sOLUtiOn aftEr tHis..
i dUn waNt tO waiT n pLayed thE rOLE likE others wanTed..
i need tO havE my oWn pLOt.. =)

sO i'm gOnNa dECidE..
diZ timE iT dOesnt mattER iF i madE thE wrOng dEcisiOn oR nOt..
iT's thE mattEr oF cHangE n dEcidiNg my owN lifE..
aS fOr wHat hapPen nExt iN fUturE, i'm thE onLy 1 whOm r fUlLy rEspOnsibLe oF iT..nO onE wilL..

sO i'm wisHing mysELf a vEry gEwd lUck.. =)

lifE iS sO eaSy..lifE iS sHOrt..
enjOy iT tO thE fUlLESt..
lEt oNly u dEcidE ur oWn fatE!!!

Friday, January 14, 2011

mE = sPOiLEd!!!!

helLo theRe..

havE u gUys waTchEd tHe tOuriSt??
iT's kinda intEresTing, bUt nOt sO sUpErb la..
n i waS attraCtEd by thE wOrds oF eLisE wHeN shE tOLd FranK bOut wHat hEr mOthEr tOld..
she said daT evEry pEopLe havE 2 sidEs inSidE thEm, thE prO n cOntra..
n tO bE witH sUm1, u mUst accEpt bOth oF iT.. =)



sO, wHat i'm gOnNa tElL iS kinda bOut tHat tHinGy..
i havE a sitUatiOn..nOt a, bUt many sitUatiOns tHat i'vE becOmE lOst cOntrOl n iT tUrnEd mE tO bE sUm1 daT iS iRriTatinG n sElfiSh..hUh..
aCt i dUn likE daT sidE oF mE bUt i rEalLy caNt cOntrOl iT wEn u pEeps arOud mE keep jUdginG mE thE wrOng way..



dUn expEct daT i'm bEttEr, n cOz oF tHat i havE tO 'baGi mUke' tO alL pEopLe..
yEp, mB trU my pErformaNces u caN pUt mE in sOmE lEvEl hiGher thaN ursELf..
i miGht havE tOLeraTe in sUm tHingS tOo..bUt nOt alL...
i am stilL a hUmaN bEinG likE alL..
iF i'm gEwd iN anyTHing, iT's mB b'cOz i'm dOing hard iN it..
wEn u triEd uR bEst, u sUrE gEt thE bEst oUtcOme..sO dUn jUz b'cOz daT i'm gEwd or havE reaCh sUm lEveL thEn u havE tO piNpOint evErytHing tO mE..

like i said earLier, i'm oSo a humaN bEing likE u alL..
wht i dO bEst 2day iS nOT a guaraNtee fOr 2mrw..
wHat i nEed to dO iS kEep oN gOing cOz i bELievE thEre arE owEz a roOm 4 imprOvemEnt..

sO u gUys oUt thEre whOm tHink daT i'm gEwd enUf, pLs dUn..
tREat mE aS thE samE wiF oTHers, bE my sParrinG partnEr thEn wE'lL gaiN sUccEss 2gthR..



nOt likE thE usUaL way, waNting mE tO givE an oppUrtUnitY fOr thE othErs..
iF i dO, thEn whOm gOnna givE mE an oPpUrtUnitY lak?? aigO..
sO iF u dUn wanT mE tO bE mOre irritatiNg n diSrEspEctfUl, trEat mE thE way u likE tO bE trEatEd.. =)

LaSt bUt nOt lEast, lifE iS tOLerabLE..
wE'rE alL thE samE!!!

enjOicE..hEe..

Thursday, January 13, 2011

sHarinG iS CAriNg!!!

i fOund tHis on a weBsiTe..i've Read iT n almOst criEd..sO i cOpiEd n pastE iT sO tHat i caN alwaYs remiNd myseLf tO Take time appreciate what i have now. --Dont miss reading this one yEa..

On the last day before Christmas, I hurried to go to the supermarket to buy the
remaining of the gift I didn't manage to buy earlier.

When I saw all the people there, I started to complain tomyself,"It is going to take forever here and I still have so many other places to go.
Christmas really is getting more and more annoying every year.How I wish I could just lie down, go to sleep and only wake up after it..."

Nonetheless, I made my way to the toy section, and there I started to curse the prices, wondering if after all kids really pla ywith such expensive toys.

While looking in the toy section, I noticed a small boy of about 5 years old, pressing a doll against his chest. He kept on touching the hair of the doll and looked so sad. I wondered who was this doll for. Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him, "Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?"

The old lady replied, "You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear."

Then she asked him to stay here for 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.

Finally, I started to walk toward him and I asked him who did he want to give this doll to.
"It is the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for this Christmas. She was so sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her."

I replied to him that may be Santa Claus will bring it to her, after all, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly.

"No, Santa Claus can not bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mother so that she can give it to her when she goes there."

His eyes were so sad while saying this.

"My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mummy will also go to see God very soon, so I thought that she could bring the doll with her to give it to my sister."


My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said, "I told daddy to tell mummy not to go yet. I asked him to wait until I come back from the supermarket."
Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me, "I also want mummy to take this photo with her so that she will not forget me."

I love my mummy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister."

Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.I quickly reached
for my wallet and took a few notes and said to the boy, "What if we checked
again, just in case if you have enough money?"

"Ok," he said. "I hope that I have enough."

I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it.
There was enough for the doll, and even some spare money.

The little boy said, "Thank you God for giving me enough money."

Then he looked at me and added,
"I asked yesterday before I slept for God to
make sure I have enough money to buy this doll so that mummy can give it to my sister. He heard me."
"I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mummy, but I didn't dare to ask God too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and the white rose."

"You know, my mummy loves white rose."



A few minutes later, the old lady came again and I left with my trolley. I
finished my shopping in a totally
different state from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my
mind.

Then I remembered a local newspaper article 2 days ago, which mentioned of a drunk man in a truck who hit a car where there was one young lady and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-assisting machine, because the young lady would not be able to get out of the coma.

Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young lady had passed away.I couldn't stop myself and went to buy a bunch of white roses and I went to the mortuary where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wish before burial.


She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rosein her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place crying, feeling that my life had been changed forever. The love that this little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to that day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk man had taken all this away from him.

Monday, January 3, 2011

2011

hEy, iT's new yEar aGain.. =)
n 2010 was vEry awEsOme..i mEan, almOst aT the End oF iT..
wOn n collEct $$$.. iT's sO fUn..
n fOr tHis nEw yEar i hOpe my lUck jUz diN cHangE..
hOpe daT i'lL cOntinUe tO bE wiF d gLOry2!! hehE..

n fOr diZ earLy sEm, i'm in mY finaL yEar..yEayh!!!
dOing my praCticaL aT RSA..
iT's nOt aS easy aS wHat u tHink..
yEst waS my 1sT day n iT gEt mE diZzy..
bUt iT's fUn cOz i lEarnEd nEw knOwledge..n wHaT'S MoRE INTeREStING, wHat i lEarnEd is rElatEd tO my stUdiEs.. =)

sO, adiOs..lOoking fOrwarD tO havE mOre intEreStinG thiNg here.. =)